BL10 Auditions

So, it's 1 in the morning and I cant sleep so I sit here with my companions, the computer and cereal...i love them both...in an unhealthy way...and ask myself why I cant sleep...I'm beginning to look older with this luggage under my eyes...(crunch crunch crunch...cheerios) maybe it's anxiety, maybe it's Larry's snoring...something he started doing this year that i'm not used to...I'm not sure if there's a pin point reason or not...but maybe it's the Biggest Loser! Most everybody knows I've tried out for the last 3 seasons...this season is different though...I am not relying on the BL to save me...I am saving me! I would love to do it on the show and you all know I should be on there! But, if I don't get on it, I wont feel hopeless...I know now what needs to be done, I am determined to get it done and change my life once and for all! THIS IS IT PEOPLE! Expect a change from me!
So, I've been thinking about being on the show in my day dreams and sleepless nights...and to be honest with you it freaking terrifies the hell out of me! Can you imagine me on there? Jillian in my personal space! People touching me! Goodness sakes, what if I have to touch a foot in a challenge? OMGoodness! I don't know what I would do! And how hard they work out! How would I handle that? Would I be gun-ho or would I sit on the floor in the middle of the gym and cry? Seriously, both are possibilities! Would they make me out to be the villain? or would I be the nice encouraging one America falls in love with? (villain huh? ya probably:) (no) haha anyway...not to mention leaving my family for months! wowzers! Thank goodness Larry will be off from school for summer break and can be home for the kids! That works! But leaving him to take care of everything is huge! So much to think about! But all worth it if I can have that opportunity to change my life with their help. What a gift that would be...
One freaky thing I found out this go around is that there's a whole culture of BL hopefuls out there! Going on casting directors blogs and facebooks etc...the last 3 seasons I went in blind, knowing hardly nothing! This season I feel like I found out the ropes!!! It's been a fun time this season...even though I dint get seen in PDX:( I'll post a note I wrote on facebook here...about the casting call...here it is...
I went with my cousin Sandy and two friends Christa and Teresa. When we got to the Convention Center we were shocked to see thousands of people waiting already! The line snaked around 3 times!!! We got in line...it was cold and rainy.. and the wind blew and we were soaked!!! For 5 hours we waited! It was fun but miserable! I was frozen and drenched but Sandy's Coach bag stayed dry under the umbrella:) (Sandy...such a diva! What a cousin! I love her!)
so they cut the line off about 400 people in front of us...and I decided I wanted it too bad to go home w/o a good fight:) So I went up to one of the peeps working and said, "Are you sure you want me to go? If I do, you're sending the next Biggest Loser home!" He laughed...and I said, "I really need to use the bathroom.(wink-wink) and he pushed me inside! Once inside it took me another hour to talk them into letting me sneak in my cousin and 2 friends in the side door....well, I'll have to say it wasn't just me, my cousin is beautiful and worked her way into their heart !She stood outside with that big smile batting those long eyelashes at them! So we got in, they gave us the paperwork and we got in line...I was the last in line:) So at 10 min to 8 they came out to tell us that they couldn't take anymore people because they had stayed an extra 2 hours and had to leave by 8 pm...so we gave them our paperwork and went to leave..as we were leaving the 40-50 people in front of us started to riot! yelling at them and being rude! I was so embarrassed for them! IT WAS CRAZY! As we were walking out the BL peeps thanked us for being compliant and we went:) of course i said, pointing at my face, "Remember this face!" So, even though I didn't get an interview..I was seen and heard probably more than anybody there!Not by the casting directors but by the staffers:) I think they loved me:) hehe:) I want to thank my dad for the gift of gab! So, now they sent an e-mail with video instructions and that's what I need to do...make a video...so...please pray for me that the Lord will have favor on my video:) So, that's the rest of the story.... But you know what, even if I don't get on the show...get ready to see me change and get healthy! This is my time! I need to do and I will! Thanks for all your support:) I love you guys:)
So that was that and now I wait for a call from California telling me I made it to the next round...I ask for your prayers, not only to get on the show, but to be a good girl while I'm on the show;>)