No Bus - Yes Bus

Convo between Cameron and I regarding taking the city bus: mom: "You should take the city bus to save gas." Cam: "I will never use public transportation & I dont understand how you think it's normal and acceptable for me to ride the bus." mom: "Because I'm a normal person, and you'll become one one day." Cam: No, I'll become a rich person one day."

I am not an elitist! where this elitist thought process comes from...oh ya, he's 19...haha The conversation was with laughter, I realize Cameron was joking, but not really... funny how a 19 year old thinks.....I was definitely in a different place than Cameron at his age...19 1/2...I was pregnant with him, had been living on my own for 3 years pretty much and had no other choice but to "ride public transportation" ...i relied on it to get to doctors appointments to make sure his ass was healthy! haha....to go grocery shopping...everything...It was a lot different for me!
do I blame the kid? no...he can not like P.T. if he wants to, I am sure he will grow up and think differently. This last year he finally realized the value of the Public Library where he would never go before to check out books, he'd spend all his money at Barnes and Noble!
now, he spends hours in the Library...he's had a different life than me...and I guess part of it is my fault...even though we have been pretty poor ourselves...we've definitely lived well below the poverty line...we can still file taxes and not use deductions and get a return...I have always tried to create a life for Cameron that doesn't have the trailer park mentality that i grew up in. From having him eat different kinds of foods, listen to different kinds of music...frequenting book stores...museums...watching documentaries...I wanted him to learn what's out there at a young age, unlike me, it wasnt until I was an adult...well, i had the other side of the fence anyway...I experienced what a lot of people never will!
I think riding the bus for Cameron would almost be a cultural experience and I hope he finds it to be as entertaining and life enriching as I do...not that I have in a long time, but I do enjoy it....
I am glad to have the life experiences I had as a kid...it has shaped and formed me into the person I am today and I like me. I learned a lot from my childhood...we were often homeless, i went to 17 schools from K-8th grade...my dad left us at least once a year (my parents are still married...) i was hungry a lot, i was a dumpster diver! We relied on food stamps and relatives to help us out...well, this is all future blog stuff...as crazy as it was! I had a lot of hurts and a lot of life lessons at a young age, but I turned out alright. I learned from it and I think my parents did the best they could given where they came from..and they taught us how to survive and always told us they loved us...that's more than a lot of kids get...wow i went from Cameron's narcissistic comment to this....hmmm...musta needed to get it out...